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It’s cool, we all have those :c -huggle- Just focus on the awesome vibe that is around you, yo, You’re perfect too >:|

I need to find that vibe

and avoid all mirrors

just everything about myself is giving me the worst feelings right now

epoh-on replied to your post: Why does fat exist? Why is it on me? Get Off …

Shhhh you are not fat you are awesome, so awesome D:

:C

Thanks

It’s just one of those days I guess, sorry

Geez I love my Dad

It’s so nice to have someone who THINKS like me I can’t even explain it to the degree and detail where I think others would understand this relief. People say, no they get it. But that’s the whole point. THEY DON’T. They don’t THINK like I do. They don’t, just, I

I have been feeling so isolated and alone and ostracized lately but I’m just so…happy isn’t even the right word. Light. Like a sigh of relief in warm sunlight and that is the most bullshit artsy descriptive sentence I have ever written in my life holy crap what

I mean don’t get me wrong, we are VERY different people and argue and fight a shit ton because I’m his daughter and that’s what families do, but to not have to explain yourself, to just be understood at this innate level

I mean, I know people have pointed out similarities before in how my dad and I talk and reason, which could have totally been situational learned behaviors or whatever

But there is no doubt in my mind now

Thinking, how we think and imagine, creativity, there has to be some genetic link to it.

I have never EVER breathed a word of fandom or my thoughts on story telling and characterization and growth, my hatred of shallow romance and shallow characters, how I love world building and alternate universes or dystopian societies, my ideas and opinions on what is important and captivating and mentally stimulating in fiction.

And somehow, having never spoken of the subject before, I have come to find my father’s opinions fall pretty much perfectly in line with my own. 

WE THINK THE FUCKING SAME

This is so unbelievably unreal

I just had a conversation (a somehow 2 hour conversation that was meant to be a 10 minute “hey I’m coming home tomorrow” call) about characterization, character interaction and depth, realistic fantasy/sci fi world building with my father and that was seriously the first time I’ve ever walked away talking about anything near those subjects feeling that someone got what I was saying, that someone actually thought and valued the same things as me, not from trying to see my point of view, but from just thinking that way too. 

This is bizarre and cruel because it is my father and now I want to discuss every fandom related thing with him but I can’t because he’s my FATHER

Also, it was really fucking adorable (there really isn’t any other word for it) to listen to him rant and talk in specific detail about the Hunger Games. Turns out he actually bought the books. Not my little sister who is in the age range. My father. (he’s going to be starting Catching Fire? soon I think) and he’s kinda disappointed at how simple they are. My father hardly reads anything and this is just adorable okay. He really wanted more from the books apparently. He like built his own little universe in his head and I was just like Dad, are you me, seriously, my god. And despite not being in the fandom, I just understood so well his frustrations with shallow motivations and faulty premises. How he kept mentioning how he really liked it, and it wasn’t so bad, and he shouldn’t be too critical of it BUT (insert MAJOR frustration here). I just listened to my father unintentionally and unknowingly give me a fandom rant and understood what it was like to hear myself. 

I love my Dad.

I think it’s time for bed and maybe a forced day or two absence from Tumblr

Tumblr is doing that thing again

where the sheer pigheaded thickness of people is getting me down again

and not everything is a personal attack 

some things aren’t even attacks

THE SHEER AMOUNT OF TIMES THAT POST HAS BEEN REBLOGGED KIND OF PROVES THE POINT THEY WERE TRYING TO MAKE THAT THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE IN ARTISTIC FIELDS AT A TIME WHERE THERE IS A VERY COMPETITIVE JOB MARKET AND NOT A LOT OF DEMAND IN THE FIELDS LISTED

and also, you are reblogging a post that you take to be a personal slam against “artistic vision and values”

on a site that is well known for being primarily composed of artists (of a variety of kinds mind you, but still)

What does this prove to anyone? What is it’s point? You are effectively “sticking it” to no one but a group of like minded individuals that you know you are going to get support and agreement from.

Also. If you think this in sudden news, where have you been? since pretty much ever The only relatively new (and that’s only the last 10 years but it’s been climbing up there for a while now) major on the list is architecture. And I could create a entirely separate post on that topic but I won’t because I don’t like feeling angry and frustrated with people anymore than I have to really, and I don’t want to perpetuate bad feelings or hate.

But I don’t even get this “battle strategy/mentality” on Tumblr especially for a “community” so dedicated to the promotion of equality and fairness. This war and peace dichotomy you project with every post sends extremely mixed messages, I’m sorry to say.

I mean, yeah, you showed “them” (whoever “they” are) you did, with your off topic argument and unrelated example of a timeless piece of artwork or non-standard architecture to prove the worth of art as a whole because that’s how that goes. Using a well-appreciated gold standard as a representation of the general masses of the subject. And in response to something that isn’t even a battle. It was most likely a filler piece between major stories. I mean Time runs articles with little subsections of graphs like this in nearly everyone of their college issues. 

And please

PLEASE NOTE THE IMPORTANCE OF THE USE OF QUOTATIONS IN THE HEADING

they imply that it these aren’t useless majors but perceived as useless, or that have the less use to the people graduating with them scaled by some unknown measure of usefulness that ISN’T PROVIDED which should immediately send up warning signs. Danger. Danger Will Robinson. 

Most of this is common sense I feel though. No one is attacking art or the importance of art in life, culture, or expression. But the job market is tough right now no denying. Most likely this was a news piece discussing a lot more than just this specific topic.

Also. Anyone who reblogged that post and mentioned being a journalist and how they were offended because how dare these journalists say these things because that’s just dumb they are journalists too

What.

If you are a journalist and can’t pick up on the strategies being employed, the silly tactics that everyone is jumping the gun on (as intended, after all they got you to act like this was important, new, relevant news…this rank from NBC without an obvious source I can remember and without variables or measures listed, and they got you to treat it as scientific fact. Sensationalized and over-blown, the media doesn’t even have to do it now, Tumblr achieves it on its own accord), the fact that this is a short out-of-context screenshot of a probably short conversational time filler piece about college seeing as its about that them where students are graduating from highschool again. And that you are getting so blatantly offended by this…

Anyone studying journalism. Just a word of advice. I’d prepare yourself for a lot more of this feeling. Especially if you are going into television broadcast journalism. 

 Okay, I didn’t mean for this to be an attack on anyone really, I’m just getting so frustrated with my dash in general. And not just this post (although I have seen it at least 47 times and that was my last count like an hour ago). And, in this case at least, I get it. It hurts to see that. Art, whether it be visual, written, musical, however you chose to express it, is very personal and it is easy to interpret this as a personal attack on something meaningful to you in ways that are so indescribable. But lashing out, and at no one really at that, is just perpetuating this pointless anger, bitterness, fear even, that just fuels hurt feeling and accomplishes nothing. 

And I mean this far beyond this one instance. Beyond social justice blogging or fandom wars. We are people. We are not white knights, or evil scum of the earth. We are people. Hopefully all rational, thinking, intelligent people, looking to learn and discuss, to not be ruled by our irrational impulses and violent, vibrant fleeting emotions.

I really would like to see more evidence of this on my dash in the future please. 

Thank you for listening to the silly, tired pleas of a frustrated Tumblr user.

I expect to see this reblogged by the morning with scathing commentary on my opinions, pointing out of incorrect minute details, and correcting grammatical/spelling imperfections that I don’t doubt are littering this piece in order to deconstruct my argument by effectively missing the point of everything I tried to say. Don’t let me down now Tumblr.

Wow, I think I need like a nap or a hug or something

there is nothing but sad Glee stuff, sad Oncie stuff, sad personal stuff, talk of either being alone or happy posts of being with friends

and then

there was this picture of little Jake out of nowhere from the recent update with this text with it

and just

no

I’m done

I’m a sobbing mess right now

I don’t even know

fuck

 

Okay so I feel gross

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teh-english-speepstakes replied to your post: I could write a fucking essay right now on why and…

So you’re not like the norm - that’s what makes you, well, you! That’s also what makes other like-minded people interested in befriending you. Sometimes, you gotta take pride in not being part of the norm. what is the norm, anyways, but an assessment of how average one…

I want to know where these like-minded people are near me because I would befriend the shit out of them. And it would really help me get over this feeling that I’m going to be alone due to my own inability to conform or merge or just get what the hell these people want me to do. 

Being different is great and all

It’s just being normal, at least in appearance, would just be so much fucking easier.

And I’m a little shit for even typing that because damn, I’m a pretty atypical white woman who has no right to bitch about being different just because she feels a little out of place in her predominantly white middle class environment. It’s all so fucking petty its unreal really. People are fucking petty and shallow as shit, especially when it comes to base judgments and impressions, and I don’t think we want to admit it.

TL;DR: Fuck. People.

I could write a fucking essay right now on why and how and to what extent I feel so completely and utterly shitty, but I feel like a tool just thinking about it.

Fuck you Social Psych, I knew I shouldn’t have gone to you today.

Just goes to show there is a major difference between knowing of your total ostracization from the general populace and being made to sit in a lecture about it while everyone jokes, laughs, and agrees.

Can I just go to sleep and forget that I’m not like the norm. That’d be great thanks.

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